Busy, busy. Boo keeps me soooo busy. I do love it, I love doing things with him. He is my little Buddy. I love that he has become a little sponge and every day he shows me something knew he does. I love it when he has full conversations in baby lingo he sounds so darn cute. He moves his little head like he is having a full on conversation, he is too funny. I must record it before he out grows out of it and has real grown up conversations. I love him more than anything but sometimes I would love to have a quiet moment and do something else like read Mels book Life from Scratch. I received it in the mail last week I have been trying to get some reading done at night but I am so tired I end up crashing out instead. Boos day sleeps are getting shorter so once I tidy up or grab myself a cuppa he is up and ready again. It might just have to be a slow read.
Yesterday Boo had his first full day at Day Care and he loved it, again. The other children "look" after him because he is the baby. The others are 2.5 and 3 and very cute. He was exhausted when he got home.
My day went by so quickly, I ran some errands then did a bit of shopping. Treated myself to a sushi train lunch vacuumed and tidied the house and before I knew it it was time to pick up Boo. It was still very weird without him.
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I tried calling the Clinic counselor this week, I needed some of my options in regards to what to do with my lone embryo clarified but she is on leave. So hopefully I will get onto her next week. I did request to know if Boo had any half siblings though. He does. There are two girls born to two families, one born in 2007 and the other in 2008. WOW! I didn't know that having that information would have blown me away the way it did. It did raise more curiosity of course. I wonder if they look anything like Boo or have any of his mannerism or personality. I wonder where they live, will Boo be playing with them in the playground and not even know. But I am ok now. I have kind of digested it all. I have decided that I am just going to put the info away until Boo is curious and starts raising questions. I don't think I could deal with anything more than that at the moment. I may change my mind but for now it has been put in a safe place.
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Thursday, January 20, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
My Lone Embryo.
Ok so I called the counselor first thing this morning to find out what the call was all about.
She was sending out reminders for embryo storage and my name popped up so she thought she would give me a call to see how things were going. She knew Max was unwell. So I filled her in. That was very kind of her. I could have just been another name on her data system.
I have one frozen embryo left. I thought I had one left but hadn't had any reminders for storage payments so questioned whether I in fact did. But I didn't want to call the clinic to find out because firstly I didn't want to have to make any decisions as to what to do with it, its been a difficult few months and I have been in no state to make big decisions. Secondly I would remind them that I had to pay for storage, in case they had just forgotten to send me the bill, you know.
After having a chat about Max and Boo and donors the Embryo came up. So I asked her what my options were in regards to my lone embryo.
As it turns out I don't have many options. Since I have had extra time to think about it. I had already thought through my options, only I didn't realise that the one that I decided upon would not in fact be an option available to me at all. I had decided that I would have liked to have donated my lone embryo. To give someone the same opportunity that I have had however I found out today that it's not possible because we are using an anonymous donor we don't have permission from him to do so. And also now that Max is deceased I can't make the decision on my own even though he consented when we commenced IVF that I could do what I wish with any remaining embryos upon his death. So that has been scrapped out.
I could transfer the embryo. I would love Boo to have a sibling, but I need to be realistic. Firstly I am 42, it most likely wont happen BUT it might and I don't want to chance transferring it for the sake of transferring in the hope that it doesn't take. That would be a 2WW from hell. Also I really don't think I could be single mother of two, it's challenging with one, I am coping but it is hard work. I take my hat off to those that do it with two or more. If Max was still here, things would most likely be different.
I could donate my embryo to research which I would be happy to do, but apparently they prefer more than one. It may still be an option.
I could request they destroy my embryo. I just can't get my head around this one yet.
Or
I could continue paying for storage. I really can't see the point in this one.
The counselor offered to call me back in 3 weeks to see if I had made a final decision.
So that I have some more time to think about it. I would love to hear others thoughts on this.
Whilst I had the councilor on the line I took the opportunity to ask a question I have been curious about the last few months. The question is whether she knew if Boo had any donor siblings. She said I had to put the request in writing and she could give me the age and sex and D.O.B of any of Boo's donor siblings if there are any. I haven't written her an email yet, but I am going to request the info. I am not sure what I will do with the info when I get it, I suppose it's more for the curiosity. She asked if I wanted to go on the donor registry so if any any donor sibling would like to make contact they can. She also went on to tell me of positive stories about donor sibling parents meeting but there were also not so positive stories. Something else to think about I suppose although very scary.
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Boo had a great first day at day care. He was only there for 4 hours I made it a short day for him to start with. I said goodbye and he waved and blew me kisses. I missed him lots. I was home alone part of the day which felt really strange, I could still hear Boo even though he wasn't home. When I went to pick him up he threw a tantrum because he didn't want to leave. A sign he was having too much fun! Boo is one of 4 children the carer looks after on his day there. There is a set of twins, a boy and girl and another little girl. The twins have two mums, so no doubt donor conceived. So 3 out of 4 children in Boo's class are donor conceived children. What are the chances of that?
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She was sending out reminders for embryo storage and my name popped up so she thought she would give me a call to see how things were going. She knew Max was unwell. So I filled her in. That was very kind of her. I could have just been another name on her data system.
I have one frozen embryo left. I thought I had one left but hadn't had any reminders for storage payments so questioned whether I in fact did. But I didn't want to call the clinic to find out because firstly I didn't want to have to make any decisions as to what to do with it, its been a difficult few months and I have been in no state to make big decisions. Secondly I would remind them that I had to pay for storage, in case they had just forgotten to send me the bill, you know.
After having a chat about Max and Boo and donors the Embryo came up. So I asked her what my options were in regards to my lone embryo.
As it turns out I don't have many options. Since I have had extra time to think about it. I had already thought through my options, only I didn't realise that the one that I decided upon would not in fact be an option available to me at all. I had decided that I would have liked to have donated my lone embryo. To give someone the same opportunity that I have had however I found out today that it's not possible because we are using an anonymous donor we don't have permission from him to do so. And also now that Max is deceased I can't make the decision on my own even though he consented when we commenced IVF that I could do what I wish with any remaining embryos upon his death. So that has been scrapped out.
I could transfer the embryo. I would love Boo to have a sibling, but I need to be realistic. Firstly I am 42, it most likely wont happen BUT it might and I don't want to chance transferring it for the sake of transferring in the hope that it doesn't take. That would be a 2WW from hell. Also I really don't think I could be single mother of two, it's challenging with one, I am coping but it is hard work. I take my hat off to those that do it with two or more. If Max was still here, things would most likely be different.
I could donate my embryo to research which I would be happy to do, but apparently they prefer more than one. It may still be an option.
I could request they destroy my embryo. I just can't get my head around this one yet.
Or
I could continue paying for storage. I really can't see the point in this one.
The counselor offered to call me back in 3 weeks to see if I had made a final decision.
So that I have some more time to think about it. I would love to hear others thoughts on this.
Whilst I had the councilor on the line I took the opportunity to ask a question I have been curious about the last few months. The question is whether she knew if Boo had any donor siblings. She said I had to put the request in writing and she could give me the age and sex and D.O.B of any of Boo's donor siblings if there are any. I haven't written her an email yet, but I am going to request the info. I am not sure what I will do with the info when I get it, I suppose it's more for the curiosity. She asked if I wanted to go on the donor registry so if any any donor sibling would like to make contact they can. She also went on to tell me of positive stories about donor sibling parents meeting but there were also not so positive stories. Something else to think about I suppose although very scary.
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Boo had a great first day at day care. He was only there for 4 hours I made it a short day for him to start with. I said goodbye and he waved and blew me kisses. I missed him lots. I was home alone part of the day which felt really strange, I could still hear Boo even though he wasn't home. When I went to pick him up he threw a tantrum because he didn't want to leave. A sign he was having too much fun! Boo is one of 4 children the carer looks after on his day there. There is a set of twins, a boy and girl and another little girl. The twins have two mums, so no doubt donor conceived. So 3 out of 4 children in Boo's class are donor conceived children. What are the chances of that?
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Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I need to know.
Today I got a call from the IVF counsellor at my clinic. I missed the call, she left a message to call back and I did but she had gone for the day. Now I am busting to know what she wants to tell me. She looks after the donor side of the clinic.
All these thoughts are going through my head.
Does Boo's donor want to know about him.
Does his donor want to meet.
Do parents of any donor siblings want to meet Boo?
Do other donor siblings have some sickness that she is going to make me aware of?
Argh tomorrow morning can't come soon enough so I can try and call her again and find out what it is.
Wish us luck!
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Boo starts his first day at Family Day Care tomorrow. I am going to give him a short day. He is still on two sleeps a day, so I will take him in after his morning sleep and see how he goes. Whilst we were away he was awfully clingy, I couldn't even leave the room to pee. He has never been like that. I think it may have just been his new surroundings and being away from home His routine was off a bit whilst holidaying too. He knows his carer and has been to her home numerous times he has also met the other kids before. Fingers crossed he will be ok. I am going to miss him that is for sure.
I am going to write a list of all the things I am going to do whilst he is in Day Care one day a week. Things I haven't been able to do whilst he is about and hanging at my heals.
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I know I am a bit late but it was National Delurking Week last week (4th Jan- 9th Jan) I was away so missed it. I would love for all you wonderful peeps to pop in and say hi so I know you are here.
All these thoughts are going through my head.
Does Boo's donor want to know about him.
Does his donor want to meet.
Do parents of any donor siblings want to meet Boo?
Do other donor siblings have some sickness that she is going to make me aware of?
Argh tomorrow morning can't come soon enough so I can try and call her again and find out what it is.
Wish us luck!
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Boo starts his first day at Family Day Care tomorrow. I am going to give him a short day. He is still on two sleeps a day, so I will take him in after his morning sleep and see how he goes. Whilst we were away he was awfully clingy, I couldn't even leave the room to pee. He has never been like that. I think it may have just been his new surroundings and being away from home His routine was off a bit whilst holidaying too. He knows his carer and has been to her home numerous times he has also met the other kids before. Fingers crossed he will be ok. I am going to miss him that is for sure.
I am going to write a list of all the things I am going to do whilst he is in Day Care one day a week. Things I haven't been able to do whilst he is about and hanging at my heals.
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I know I am a bit late but it was National Delurking Week last week (4th Jan- 9th Jan) I was away so missed it. I would love for all you wonderful peeps to pop in and say hi so I know you are here.
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