Sunday, October 3, 2010

The Tears.

I miss you so much. I don't know why today is harder than yesterday or the day before.
Today, the tears wont stop.
I want you near. I kiss and hug a photo of you, that is all I have. Photos and our memories. I feel your lips through the glass of the photo frame remembering how sweet they are and all the love that they gave. Why did you have to go ? I need you here. I want you here. You didn't deserve to be taken. Not now but a lot, lot later. We still had so much living to do together.
Fuck you cancer!

26 comments:

lparsons15 said...

So sorry Vee...I hope this gets easier for you soon.

Miss Ruby said...

You're right he didn't deserve to be taken. My Mum has days like this too Vee - it's normal, healthy, to be expected and when she does I know nothing I say will help but I tell her what I believe - he [both my Dad and your beloved Max and anyone else that has passed over before their time] was needed elsewhere. He had done what he needed to here, on this plane and now he was needed elsewhere.

Yes, we HATE that their time was short, we may disagree with the notion that they had done what they needed to do here but we rarely know the path of fate, even when it's upon us, the future is unknown which is both sad and exciting.

As always I wish you a little more peace everyday and may your memories of Max wrap your soul and heart in a warm embrace whenever you need him.

Much love my friend.

xxxxxxx

Pundelina said...

((hugs)) for you Vee, it's so unfair.

Tina said...

Sending huge hugs you way hun xo
I'm sorry you are having a rough day :(

Bea said...

A hard day. I'm sure there'll be others, out of the blue, as well. I know you'll recover again and be able to face the world tomorrow without him, but I wish you didn't have to. I can't answer your questions, I wish I could.

Bea

maytey said...

Lots and lots of love, Vee. One day at a time. xxx

Lut C. said...

You have every reason to be angry. I'm sorry that you do.

Gil said...

Just letting you know that I am thinking of you as you deal with the hard days, the harder days, and the easier ones. May there be more of the easier ones in your future. We love you sweetie. I wish you didn't have any of this to deal with. I truly do.

Jules363 said...

I'm so very, very sorry, Vee. It's still such early days, it really is. I wish so hard that Max was still here with you, it's so wrong.

cgd said...

Here from LFCA. I am so very sorry for your loss. There are no words for this, just know there are people thinking of you and your family and sending love your way.

Jessica said...

Here from LFCA....I can't imagine the pain you are going through.
I lost my mom to cancer a couple years ago...so I am with you, FUCK CANCER!!!

Sami said...

Here from LFCA... I'm sorry... you may not know me, but know I'm thinking of you.

DaisyGal said...

I am so sorry that you have days like this, that it hits from out of the blue and you're reminded...that you are sad, lonely, lost and angry.

it was the most unfair thing, for Max to not be here with you...and while I can offer comfort from far away, it is not the same, it's not even close.

sending you all the LOVE I can and hoping that tomorrow is an easier day...Love u.

Delenn said...

Wishing that he could be there for you, knowing nothing I can say can be adequate. But I say them anyways. I am so sorry. Thinking of you, abiding with you.

Trinity said...

Here from LFCA and wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and your family. This is an unfathomable loss, and I'm genuinely very sorry, Vee...

Warm hugs...

Jenn said...

Here from LFCA and just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I wish I could find the right words to say, other than I'm so very sorry. Thinking of you and your son and wishing much peace and comfort for both of you.

cowgirltn said...

I am sending you a huge hug.

Lavender Luz said...

Abiding with you. I'm sorry that it's still so hard, and I hope your heart is soothed soon somehow, someway.

XOXOXO

Heather said...

Stopping by from LFCA too. I am so sorry for your loss. Your words make my heart ache. I wish I had something I could offer you for comfort. Just know that I am thinking of you and your son.

Take care.

Anonymous said...

Oh Vee. I'm so sorry. Sorry for your pain and loss. It's so unfair. Wishing you love, comfort and healing. Thinking of you.

L

rebecca said...

So sorry Vee, grief is so intense and all consuming and I know how some days it hits you harder than others. It's so painfully unfair that your Max was taken so soon. Thought I'd share a quote that was passed on to me during a difficult time in my life...
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” --Washington Irving

((hugs)) to you, sending thoughts and love your way.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Fuck cancer indeed. Sending a hug and a lot of love.

Because there are no good words.

Princess Jo said...

Thinking of you.

(((HUGS)))

Wish I lived that little bit closer!!

Journeywoman said...

I'm so sorry.

Gurlee said...

Here from LFCA.
Sending you my thoughts of love and peace. Blessings to you and your little beauty.

Stacie said...

Sending love your way...