Thursday, December 16, 2010

The Music

Well still no wrapping done and only about a quarter of my Christmas cards written. Boo is cutting an eye tooth and a molar at the same time so he has been quite unsettled. He keeps waking during the night which is a drag. He falls asleep quickly enough but I don't. So I have been having naps during the day when he has a sleep which leaves me with no time to do the things I need to do.
Boo hasn't had much success with his helmet firstly the humidity has been a killer here, the helmet makes him extra hot and he literally drips sweat off his head enough that his t-shirts are saturated. Secondly because his helmet needs to be adjusted it keeps pushing down over his eyes which makes him want to yank it off and then he whinges the entire time, so to make us all happy I take it off. I am getting it adjusted tomorrow.

I went to the U2 concert on Monday night, they were great. It was the first time I had seen them live although they have come to Sydney many times. I went with a bunch of old school friends including CDV all who are huge fans from way back and have seen them many times. I would have liked them to have played some more of their older songs but overall I was impressed, we had great seats too.

As soon as I got out of the cab and walked into the stadium forecourt, I thought of Max. I was walking around alone until my friends arrived. Max and I did a lot together, we had a lot in common. Seeing live music was one of them. I felt his presence the entire time, he should have been walking beside me. During the concert, Bono played a quiet song, I don't even recall what it was now because I had switched off after it had triggered some thoughts.( CDV you may remember) It was a moment that I imagined Max by my side with his arm around my waist bopping to the music. I imagined him yelling out his YEAAAH after being impressed by the music. I got totally caught up in my own little dream, I had forgotten I was surrounded by 85,000 U2 fans. I tried so hard to control the tears, CDV was beside me, she noticed and put her arms around me.  I told her I was ok. I almost went into a blabbering mess when I took a few deep breaths and pulled myself together enough to get into the next song.  Max would have wanted me to enjoy the night. So I did but I still miss him terribly.


*** Editing to Add

Thanks CDV I knew I could rely on you. Wow those lyrics have just blown me away a truly beautiful song. Max surely was speaking with me.


Anonymous said...

Hey Vee, Max sure would have enjoyed the concert:) I noticed your tears and they made me so sad. It was Stuck in a Moment- a beautiful wonder you went on a little dream..check out the lyrics- it was Max speaking to you... :)

I'm not afraid
Of anything in this world
There's nothing you can throw at me
That I haven't already heard

I'm just trying to find
A decent melody
A song that I can sing
In my own company

I never thought you were a fool
But darling look at you
You gotta stand up straight
Carry your own weight
These tears are going nowhere baby

You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it

Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it

I will not forsake
The colors that you bring
The nights you filled with fireworks
They left you with nothing

I am still enchanted
By the light you brought to me
I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

And you are such a fool
To worry like you do
I know it's tough
And you can never get enough

Anonymous said...

I am POSITIVE that Max was talking to you through that song. The lyrics are amazing.

I listen through your ears
Through your eyes I can see

He was in the concert with you, Vee!

Bea said...

Wow. That song, those lyrics.

I'm glad you had a good time. It would have been great to have Max there in the way you describe. But wow, that song, those lyrics... definitely meaning to find in there.


Kristin said...

Those lyrics are incredible. And, I agree with everyone else. He was there with you.

Leah said...

*tears* love is beautiful and enduring, glad you had that moment

DaisyGal said...

well that was the most beautiful Pre-Christmas gift he could have given you isn't it? I'm so glad he spoke to you in that MOMENT.

love u.