I have been reading a lot about loss and grief in the blogosphere lately. Which I am sorry for. When I read these bloggers words I usually nod whilst reading and think to myself that is exactly how I feel. I am finding it frustrating because I have all these feeling, these emotions, yet I can't write them down. And I read others words and it's like they have written it down for me. I don't know why I can't write them down, I wish I could I know I would feel better for it. I have soooo much to say. But I can't, they are stuck somewhere. I want to leave comments but I can't, I don't know why I can't. I feel like I am in a really strange place.
I have been feeling very tired lately, I am not sure why. I think I might be fighting a sinus infection. I really only have my evenings to write. I pop on and off the computer during the day, post some pics of FB, write a status, read some blogs and that's about it. I do all my thinking in the mornings, I write posts in my head when I am fresh come evening I am exhausted and just can't get them out. The humidity in Sydney has been shocking the last couple of weeks, I love summer but I can't handle the humidity, it just drains me of energy. So my posts are just blah blah lately with no expression. I am not telling you how I am really feeling, not because I don't want to, it's just that I can't. But I want to.
You see this post probably makes no sense. I am tired.