Bubbaboo's First Birthday

Wonderful cake that I helped a friend make for Bubbaboo's Party.

He is One! My boy is one. I can't believe I have been a Mum for a year and I made it. There have been so many struggles but to focus on the positives it has been truly amazing, Bubbaboo is amazing! I adore that boy, there is so much love in my heart for him that it will explode and I know he loves me too. The first time he showed me that he loved me and wanted me was the evening of Max's funeral over 3 months ago. I was staying at my sisters and had lots of family around he was to go down for the night so to give me a rest everyone else was dealing with him but he wouldn't settle for them. It came to inconsolable screaming so I went in and gave him a cuddle and he fell straight to sleep in my arms with no fuss, he wanted me, his Mum. That's when he first showed me he loved me and he needed me, he couldn't have done it at a better time. Now he shows me in many ways, he extends his arms for a cuddle and gives me sloppy kisses on my cheeks or rests his forehead on mine as a kiss. He is constantly smiling and laughing and giggling, he makes me laugh every day which is just so precious to me and I thank him so much for it.

On Thursday, his actual birthday, after giving him loads of birthday kisses and cuddles, we went to visit my Mum in hospital. I took a small cake so we could celebrate with her. He had lots of nice Nonna time. Then I took him to the park on his new trike I bought him for his birthday, he loves it and says bbbrrrrrm when he is on it. I actually thought about Bubbaboos birth that day, the day he was born and how much joy he bought Max and I. The smile on Max's face was just priceless, a moment I will never forget. So that's what birthdays are really about  hey, who would have thought. I didn't now that before now. I am forever grateful for giving birth to a beautiful live baby.

Checking out the Sydney view from his Nonna's hospital bed.

On Sunday we had a big party for him at home with family and friends, there were over 50 people. My Mum was allowed out of hospital for a few hours to celebrate with us, that was very precious. Lucky I have an amazingly huge backyard which is perfect for parties. I hired some play equipment for the kids to play on since they were all, bar one, a lot older than Bubbaboo and they had a ball. I organised some games with prizes, pass the parcel , Pin the Nose on the Clown and I had a Pinata that we didn't get to use at the fundraiser. It was a great day, Bubbaboo had loads of fun playing with all the other kids and getting tossed from adult to adult. He really is a little social butterfly and he doesn't mind a bit. It was a huge day for me though. I ended up in bed at 8pm with a mega headache and loads of mess to clean up the next day. But it was all worth it. You only turn one once!
I just wish Max was here to witness his son growing into this wonderful little being. He would be just so proud.

Playing with his trike at his birthday party.

Happy first birthday my precious son. Mummy loves you soooooo much!