Saturday, May 14, 2011

WOW! Seriously WOW!

Wow, just WOW! No words can describe the last few days and all the support and comments around blogland. I have just been overwhelmed. There were posts of support written everywhere, like here and here and here and there and probably more that I am not even aware of......seriously it as blown me away.
My heart has been filled with so much love it was going to explode.
THANK YOU each and every one of you.
Especially the gorgeous Eden & Alexandra, two beautiful souls. I love that Eden allowed me to be part of her project. She probably would have been better off without Boo and I at the hospital, what Eden didn't tell you was that Boo decided to have a little big hissy fit right when we started putting the canvases up on walls. Like we needed the attention. Thanks Boo! It will be a story I will certainly be telling him when he is older. For sure.

I have been riding high on all your words of comfort for the last couple of days but like I suspected would happen, today I have crashed. I am feeling so overwhelmed by everything. Boo is sick with a cold, was up most of the night very unsettled. I thought I had found our new home, only to realise it didn't really fit our needs ie no bathtub (Boo hates showers) no garden front gate (toddler on the loose), and a huge backyard with lawn, extra cost with a lawnmower or a service, not to mention the time to mow it. Damn it! The house itself was perfect. So on I hunt.
I have so many things I want/need to do but until I find a new home and get settled in it's not going to happen. Which is disheartening and disappointing. One day at a time.

There was something else I did on Wednesday to commemorate Alex. I was so blown away reading comments that I forgot to mention it, actually I had forgotten that I had even done it until I went to bed that night and put my head on the pillow and went ouch! What was that? Oh that's right I got my ear pierced today. Yep, I got a 3rd piecing in my left ear, for Alex. My ear piercings have always been special to me. I have four all up, 3 in one ear and 1 in the other, yes feeling a little unbalanced but I like that, because I am a Libran which is all about balance, so I like to break the rules. When I was 6 weeks old my mother with her own hands pierced my ears, obviously I didn't think much of it back then but when I was in my early teens I loved that she had done that. I already had mine pierced whilst other teenagers were begging their parents to have their ears pierced. But I love that she pierced them, my beautiful mum. My second single piercing I had done by a gyspy in Sicily, Italy, it represents my roots. Not the gypsy part but the Sicily part. And now my 3rd one is for Alex, done a year after his death. He will certainly never be forgoten.

And all of you have helped remember him and I hope you continue to.
Thanks again for all your love and support.
xx

10 comments:

maytey said...

Sorry about the house Vee, how frustrating! Better not to be dealing with those worries though. Something more suitable will come along. Your mum is a brave woman!!

Suz @ Segovia and The I Love You Song said...

xx

edenland said...

HA - your mum is hardcore - mate YOU are hardcore, gettin your ears pierced at six weeks old. Love it.

I ADORED the fact that Boo kicked up such a big stink last Tuesday. It's like, who the fuck wants to be in a cancer ward anyway .. it's like he knew.

It was all meant to be, the way it happened just so. THANK GOD you were there. I probably would've crumbled without you!!

You will find the right house for you and Boo. I promise. In the meantime, come up here anytime. I hope he gets better real soon XOXOX

stink-bomb said...

i read a quote the other day that said...

"love is friendship set on fire"

while i believe that to be true, i also think it's true in reverse too, friendship is love set on fire because all friendship involves love and that's what you have been the last couple of days Vee [and before that and now after] LOVED by people from all parts of the world, people you know and people you don't.

~x~

lparsons15 said...

Bummer about the house..I am SO glad that you are getting the support you need, you so deserve it!

jill said...

I'm sorry about the house - house-hunting is tough. I never thought it would be until I actually did it! You WILL find a place though. I love that you pierced your ear for max. A very good way to remember him.

foxy said...

Hi Vee,
I've been here, reading all of these amazing stories of love and admiration of your husband this past week. Your words, their words, his words, they are so incredibly powerful, and I just felt like my words couldn't possibly be enough. I do want you to know that You and Boo have been close in my heart.
love, Foxy

Kristin said...

I'm so glad you had all this amazing support to help you just a little. {{{Hugs}}}

Lut C. said...

Boo has impeccable timing (don't they all!)

Remarkable that you have a story for all your piercings.

Leah said...

You have done Max really proud I am sure! Love that all your piercings have such special meanings to you :) I hope the next little while is not too rough on you, and the perfect house will come along real soon.