tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23109168195412748072012-02-18T10:39:22.049+11:00"Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" Bob MarleyVeehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.comBlogger1811100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-78325373721280530592012-01-26T09:10:00.002+11:002012-01-26T11:31:17.328+11:00

- A quick post whilst Boo is having a rest. - Boo had his surgery Monday. Tonsils and adenoids out and grommets put in his ears. He is not doing the best stayed in hospital two days instead of one due to vomiting and rejecting fluids and food. We came home yesterday. I am watching his nappies today if they are too dry he will be back in hospital to be put on IV fluids. - I do love the snuggles

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 Just a warning there are a lot of photos in the post. A week into the new year already. Slow down please is all I can say. I hope you have all had a great start to the new year. We like to keep busy around here especially in Summer we are always out and about or in the backyard. Boo loves being outdoors, we have lots of playdates with little friends. He loves company. He gets upset if I take

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Thank you.  All of you. Yes you and you. For being here for me, through another tough time in my life, the death of my beautiful mother. Still grieving Max and then dealing with the death of my mum has been difficult, I probably haven't written about it as much as I have wanted to only because I can't express this grief and the feelings I have in words. So I stay silent. I don't like being silent

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-81364193966917825042011-12-26T21:56:00.002+11:002011-12-26T22:00:16.936+11:00

It certainly was a strange Christmas, quiet. I spent it split between my two brothers homes. One for lunch then the other for coffee, dessert and swim. The sun finally shown in Sydney. If you haven't heard already from all the whinging, Sydney has had a shitty wet and cool Summer, so far. It's raining as I type. But we were fortunate to get a swim in yesterday which was great. Boo had a wonderful

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Age- 2 Years 3 months 25 Days Weight Approx- 15kg Height Approx- 92cm He is very funny, he has a wonderful sense of humour. He is a very happy boy except for when he doesn't get his way. He is very cheeky and is constantly in trouble. He is very affectionate and gives random kisses and cuddles. He has lots of girlfriends. One particular one, they are very fond of each other. Here they are in

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Christmas is going to be very different this year....without my Mum, without Max. By this time my Mum would have baked hundreds of Italian biscuits and made cannoli and all the specials xmas treats she used make. This year we wont be enjoying any of them. It's sad that Boo wont remember her, that he wont remember her love for cooking and food. The wonderful talent she had that bought us all so

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-44018163936738121852011-11-23T20:44:00.000+11:002011-11-23T20:44:36.590+11:00

I have been neglecting my blog, my blogging friends, commenting, reading of late and I don't like it. I need my blog, I need my blog friends and I miss you all. I do. I have been focusing on my business which has been really busy, I love capturing beautiful people. But I am still juggling it all. I write so many posts in my head by the time I have the time to blog, I no longer have the energy to

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Took Boo to the Zoo again, I didn't realise that it had been so long between visits, 6 months in fact. I have promised to take him more often and renew my yearly membership. There was a big difference in taking him this time compared to the last. He was so engaged with the animals, he loved seeing them all. The main attraction was seeing the three new Tiger cubs born in August but have only just

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I came across this on FB and it's just so true. Between missing Max and missing my Mum, it happens so frequently to me. Some times I surprise myself as to how well I am getting on, keeping very busy is helping I must admit. Then there are other days, when I do don't do too well. I went to a friends wedding yesterday it was a gorgeous day and a beautiful wedding. Lots of fun catching up with

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Has it been 2 weeks since I updated? Well those weeks have flown and I have been really busy. It has been that long since I launched my business and I am happy to say it has started to take off with my Christmas special. It's pretty cheap and I am not making much money out if it just yet, but I want to get my work out there and get work by word of mouth and it seems to be working. I just hope it

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I have been busy, Boo keeps me really busy which I do love but sometimes I just wish I would get a little break I have also been getting my business up and running. Finally launched my blogsite here. What do you think? Honestly? There is still so much to do. I have some jobs lined up out of it, I am pretty excited about it all. I have become a camera addict, I have this need to take photos....

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We were hoping to get away for the long weekend, up to my sister property in the Blue Mountains. But when we got up there my sister was sick with some bug so we decided to spend the day only. Boo had an awesome time, he got to spend some fun quality time with his Godfather (my nephew) He has been up there for peace and quiet to record his music. I will definitely go back soon, because Boo just

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Thank you all for my birthday wishes. The day went by and as expected it just wasn't the same. It never will be. So I just dealt with it. I stayed in my pj's for as long as I could until a friend called and asked if we wanted to go the park, so we had a bite to eat and took the kids to the park. After an usually hot day on Friday we had a cold snap the next so it was freezing. Yesterday my sister

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I had to ask someone how old I was turning the other day. After 40 I just haven't kept up, it's strange. Maybe I just don't want to know. I turn 43 today. Boo woke up at 5am, thanks son for my birthday present. I know you just want my day to feel that little bit longer. I miss Max, no morning birthday cuddles, no early happy birthdays, no special gifts, no extra I love yous. I miss my Mum too.

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Seriously, I know I keep saying it but the weeks are just flying by! Any spare time I get I am busy getting the business up and running, so it doesn't leave much time for blogging, blog reading or commenting. So I am going to leave you with some pics because it's been a while. With Spring here the weather is warming up so we are getting out and about and spending more time outdoors, which we both

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Wow, that week just flew by. I have been busy, busy is good, distractions are good. It makes grieving a little easier. I have been working on building up my photographic portfolio. I am getting there and I can see the improvements with every shoot I do. So to me that is success. I still have LOTS to learn though. Now or soon, very soon I hope I to start making some money from it. Because money is

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I go to call my Mum many times through out the day. That's what I used to do, call her check up on her see how she is going that day, see if she needed anything. It makes me sad that I can no longer hear her voice asking what I am doing, what Boo is up to, laughing at the new funny thing he does, giving me suggestions on what to cook for dinner. I miss her. I was telling Bea in an email after

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I don't think I can even write about my Mums funeral in detail. I will say that is was a beautiful celebration of her life. There were close to 350 people there, she touched so many peoples lives. She was amazing my Mum, and I am not just saying that because she is my Mum, you can ask anyone who knew her. Boo was on his best behavior, he slept through half of the service then was a angel for

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I sat on the front pew with my Dad and brothers and sister in the church, Boo was at home being looked after by a couple of my friends. I could hear the whispers behind me as my mothers family and friends arrived to visit her for the last time. The most beautiful casket I have ever seen was wheeled into the church, my sister in law chose it for her. Nothing but the best for our Mum.  The funeral

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I have so much to say. So much has happened the last couple of days, with my Mums viewing, visiting her home, then her funeral yesterday and today it's my gorgeous Boo's 2nd birthday. My head is spinning my emotions are everywhere. I will come back once I can sort things out in this head of mine. Thank you all for you kind words. xx

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I am angry, angry, angry! I don't get angry very often. I am making up for it now. I am angry with my family, angry with my friends, angry with Boo, and at the universe. Just pissed off is what I am. I am feeling so lonely, I have a huge family and heaps of friends but I feel like have no one to hold me when I am cry. I am missing Max terribly, he used to always be there for me, to listen to me,

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When Max died he was angry, he didn't want to leave. He wasn't ready, he had too much to live for, he had me, he had his beautiful Boo his life as a family was just beginning. He was enjoying his work, loving his hobbies, had so many dreams to fulfill. His cancer made him feel ugly. He had a good reason to die angry. The image of his last days is stuck in my head I can't wipe it, it haunts me.

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I am feeling really numb, it hasn't really hit me that my Mum has died. I think it might the day of the funeral. I don't know, my grief is kind of all over the place. Grieving for my Mum and Max and everything we have lost not having these two beautiful souls in our lives. I know they are together and I believe that they are happy and at peace. It's this sense I am getting. My family has been

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You gave it all you had, I wish I had half the strength you had.  I know your faith got you through this, in the end you were defeated but not without a good fight. You fought the dragon for 13 years, who does that? Only a super woman like you. I can't say good bye. You are my Mum, always my Mum. I can't let you go, even though you have left. Left us to meet Max, your Mum and your brother. You

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Yesterday I was high as a kite. I did the City2Surf, I survived 14km and Heart break Hill. I did it! I still can't believe it. The endorphins kicked in and we had a really great day. I was thinking of Max and knew he would very proud of Boo and I, not only for completing it but also raising funds for Rainbows for Kate. And I must say I was pretty chuffed with myself also. I am aching today but

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I realised why all my thoughts and words to express them have been so difficult to write or even talk about. It's my happy pills. I should have worked it our sooner, but I thought it was just me.  You now grieving, dealing with life. I am feeling so flat, lifeless and lazy. I am usually a doer I get things done, I am always out and about but lately I can't be stuffed doing anything. Although I am

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My Mum is getting much needed rest and seems comfortable in the palliative care hospital. They are looking after her well. She did have a scare the other night when she was taking her antibiotics through the nebuliser, the same antibiotic she has taken for almost six years. My nephew was there visiting and all of a sudden she threw off her mask and tried to yell that she couldn't breath. Her

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Wow! Just Wow! Does this girl rock!!?? Just like I wrote in your comment Eden "Thank you for never allowing Alex to be forgotten, to share your story and his artwork across the world. He would be just blown away. You keep rock'n girl. Thank you to all your readers and bloggers for your support. Much love to you all x Alex was here." And always will be. I had gone to bed and thought I

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I am currently sitting in my parents back yard writing this, the warm winter sun on my back and my fathers budgies chirping very loudly, so loud I can't concentrate. I spent the night here last night to look after my Mum, she is a little better. Monday night we were all sure it was her last. But if you know my Mum is a fighter, she isn't ready to let go yet. She is a real champion. Thankfully.

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Please keep my Mum in your thoughts and prayers. She has deteriorated significantly this afternoon. She has put up an amazing fight but I hate to see her suffer now. I am finding it difficult to watch I know the signs and what's to come. My emotions are all over the place, yet not until writing this have I shed a tear.

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-45469653263598907492011-07-29T19:43:00.001+10:002011-07-29T19:45:51.648+10:00

I finally got my internet and phone hooked up so I should be writing a huge post because it has been a HUGE couple of weeks, but I am too tired and don't have the enegry to gather my thoughts. So here is a brief post. We are in our new home, which we love. I wish Max was here to enjoy it with us, he too would love it. I miss him terribly. Two things that I didn't realise about this house one is

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As of tomorrow I will minus my internet connection until I get hooked again at my new home, I don't know how long it's going to take. So I will leave you with some pics of our new home. View from my back deck. Yes that is the tip of the Sydney Harbour Bridge on the left and the City on right. Cute hey?

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I am SO over packing my goodness, it has taken a lot longer than I expected. It doesn't help when you have a very curious toddler who has to pull things out of boxes as you put them in! It took 3 days to pack the office, there was so much paperwork to sift through everything had to be read before being ripped up and trashed or kept. Max held onto paper work, he was a paperwork hoarder! It was

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- Packing! Oh how I hate you, just as well there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I just can't see it yet. - I am starting to bury myself in boxes, yet if feels like I haven't done anything. SO much to do. - I keep putting off packing the hard stuff, the emotional stuff , I know I need to get to it eventually but I don't really want to deal with it. - I am having a Garage sale on Saturday

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-49176242616607816062011-07-01T09:36:00.000+10:002011-07-01T09:36:47.158+10:00

On Tuesday I called the real estate agent to ask when I would find out if I was successful in my application for the house. I was told I would find out on Wednesday, so I went on with my day. It wasn't till late that night when I put my mobile on the charger that I saw I had a missed call. It was the agent telling me apologetically that I had missed out on the house. I was devastated. So tired of

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* Warning- Vomit mentioned. On Thursday I got some horrible stomach bug, with cramping and nausea, and just feeling really tired. It wasn't nice. On Saturday morning, Boo was sick and vomited all over the rug, I picked him up and as I trekked him into the bathroom he exploded again on the way, all over more of the carpet, a clean basket of clothes,  a couple of sheep skins, and it just trailed

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My Mum came out of hospital today, only because she asked to leave otherwise they would have kept her in there. She hates that hospital it's not where her specialist works out of so she sees lots of other Dr's and she doesn't feel like they look after her as well. She always ends up in a room full of strange people or people that are not mentally stable therefore she does not feel comfortable and

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 My Mum is in hospital again, she is not doing very well with her breathing and anxiety attacks. I haven't been able to see her because Boo has been sick, first with a cold and today he has been vomiting and has diarrhea. He seems to be ok in spirits so that is a plus, it's easier to keep him busy if he is feeling ok. When I was speaking with my Mum this morning she was saying how tired she felt

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Oh how beautiful you are breaking through the icy cold winter breeze and warming us. Sun you really are the best thing about Winter. I just wish you would come out to play more often. I just have to say how proud I am of Boo. We went to the park to feed the ducks, but the pigeons decided to take over. Boo is usually very cautious around animals, he loves them but he likes to keep his distance,

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Dear Blog, I am sorry I have neglected you, I have so much to say but don't know where to start, so I don't say anything. Do I tell you how I have started my City2Surf training? Do I tell you about how today I opened Max's music CD cabinet to look for some music to blast through the house whilst I packed some of Boos toys away and as soon as I saw the CD titles I burst into tears? I just saw

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I put a house application in. I really, really want this house. It has everything we need and lots and lots of space. Hopefully find out tomorrow afternoon if I was successful or not. Fingers crossed. *************************************** See that paragraph you just read, I wrote it whilst Boo was having his nap, that is far as I got because he woke up. I decided to take him to the park since

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-28463655486334657422011-05-30T20:01:00.001+10:002011-05-30T20:02:35.659+10:00

Thanks everyone for your helpful comments on The Letter you have all made very valid points. I have decided to sit on it for a little while and see how I feel once some time has passed. I think that is the best thing to do at this stage. When I said Boo was into everything. Here is an example. After having lunch at my parents house, my mother and I were in the kitchen doing the dishes. When my

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 Ever since Max's year anniversary I have been thinking about his father a lot. I had been doing really well thinking of him as dead, but subconsciously it is still eating me up. I decided to write him a letter. I haven't sent it to him and not even sure I will, but I just needed to get a few things off my chest, tell it to him how it is. ******************************Dear D, You are probably

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I have been in a real slump the last few weeks. I am struggling, today I really came crashing down. Nothing seems to be going my way. Lot's of things are going through my head, ideas, thoughts, to do lists, Max, grieving, etc etc. I so want a new home, but I just can't find anything suitable, if I move and have to pay more money I really want to be able to tick all the right boxes. I keep

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Boo loves visiting my Mum & Dad, he is always so busy there. So much to do and see he is always on the go discovering new things. I love that he is getting to spend some time with his Grandparents, their time is so precious as they grow older and frailer. These are couple of special moments. (Kristen suggested I add this to the weekly Perfect Moments Mondays, so this will be my first add. Thank

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Yesterday was a huge day for me, I finally started doing something I had been putting off for so long. I cleaned out the home office. Boo was at daycare and I had promised myself that Wednesday was the day. In the past I kept making excuses, putting up barriers. For example, I needed a paper shredder , because I really can't leave all of Max's private files unshredded. I could, I mean I could put

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I pinched this MEME from someone some time ago, sorry I don't recall who it was, so thought I would give it a go. A. Age. 42 Eeek! B. Bed size: Queen. It's lonely these days. C. Chore you dislike: Ironing- With a passion! D. Dogs: No dogs but would love to get one some day. E. Essential start to your day: Coffee!! F. Favorite color: Purple G. Gold or silver: Silver, but mainly white gold. H.

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Wow, just WOW! No words can describe the last few days and all the support and comments around blogland. I have just been overwhelmed. There were posts of support written everywhere, like here and here and here and there and probably more that I am not even aware of......seriously it as blown me away. My heart has been filled with so much love it was going to explode. THANK YOU each and every one

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Hey Babe, It's been a year since you left us and went to that better place. I hope you are ok. It's seems just like yesterday that I held your sunken cheeks in my hands, kissed your cold blue lips and said goodbye. I miss you. Fuck I miss you. I am sorry if I get angry at you at times, angry that you left me and Boo, it's not really you I am angry with it's that shitty cancer you had that took

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Today is a year since Max (aka Alex) passed away and these two wonderful women, Eden and Alexandra have done something fucking awesome. I just want to point you there for now, because you can not miss out on what they have done. Thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart. I wish I could hang out here all day, but I have my distractions firstly I need to get Boo to Daycare, then go and

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I am grateful every single day that I have this beautiful face to kiss.I know how fortunate I am. I will never forget it.I thank the universe.I thank Max.I thank our donor.I thank our Doctors.I thank my body.I thank Boo for choosing me to be his Mummy. I love you with everything I have my Boo.Love your Mummy xxoo

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It's a year next week since Max died, a whole fucking year! Some days I really can't believe he has gone. I look at his photo attached to my computer screen and I shake my head in disbelief. Like I expect him to walk in from work, or shuffle his way into the computer room and sit at his computer beside me, playing around with his photos and asking me how to do something in Photoshop. But he is

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Another post in photos.....because my brain is fried. This little monkey is keeping me very busy. I hope to be back soon.

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There is lots happening at the moment, socially and emotionally. Busy, busy, crazy, crazy. Appologies for not reading or commenting on blogs, I will back once things settle down around here. I took Boo to the Easter Show, I hadn't been for years and was so excited to take my boy. He loved it! He did have his biggest tantrum to date there because he wanted to go back on the Carousel but apart

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I have just had three intensive days doing the course. I walked in there with an open mind,  I really didn't know what to expect as I had never done anything like it before. They were really long days- 9am till 10pm everyday for 3 days. The first day I walked out of there totally exhausted and angry, quite pissed off actually. Why? Firstly I didn't get it, I was really confused and thought it

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There is just so much happening at the moment, so I apologise for another life in points post. My Mum ended up having some Radiotherapy during the week to stop her bleeding tumour. She finally went home from hospital yesterday. But she really is still unwell. You know my Mum has amazed us so many times, the amount of times she has been in and out of hospitals over the years and she keeps

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In the last 3 years Max and I only had sex probably only a hand full of times. Gasp! You see at first there was thing called...a diagnosis. Cancer. And Cancer really doesn't put you in the mood. That was followed by depression, then Chemotherapy, then more Cancer treatment, then an IVF pregnancy which you don't want to risk, but did on the odd occasion, then there was radiotherapy then there was

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My Mum is still in hospital she is itching to come out now after a week. The Dr's are communicating with her specialists at another hospital which is where she has had most of her treatment done. They are deciding whether to give her a low dose of radiotherapy to stop the bleeding. Dr's were meant to get back to her today, they didn't, which means she may end up having to stay in over the weekend

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I was going to start getting into the office and do a big clean up. I got as far as opening up Max's sketch books and that was the end of that. It's going to be a loooong process. Max was so bloody talented. He never thought he was, no matter how many times I told him he really was fantastic and should think about pursuing it. He never did. He just enjoyed drawing, illustrating and taking

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This is going to be a post in points. I am so tired I can't gather my thoughts. It was the end of Daylight savings over the weekend and Boo and I just haven't adjusted too well yet. I'm emotionally exhausted too. - My Mum was taken to hospital by ambulance on Friday night. She was coughing up loads of blood more than her usual and couldn't get her breath. At first they thought she had a blood

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When we got back from Thailand I had the travel bug. Real bad. My feet where itching so badly. I was scratching so hard they were going to bleed. I wished I had stayed in Phuket longer, 10 days just wasn't long enough. So I researched and researched our next holiday destination. Thinking perhaps I could go to Italy for my cousins wedding in July and visit Max's Mum and brother in France, then I

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Today I took Boo to the Zoo. He loved it! Like I thought he would. I am excited becuase I became a Zoo Friend which gives me unlimited entries into the Zoo with discounts on loads of things including parking. So it definately somewhere we will be spending a lot of time at during this Winter. We saw so much but there is still so much more too see. Boo has finally, at almost 19 months, decided to

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My MUM. She is bloody amazing. She is running on one lung, she is in pain, nauseous, breathless, tired yet she allowed us to celebrate another year of St Josephs day together, once again. (I have copied an old post I wrote in 2006 from my old blog below so you know what it's about ) When my Sister told me a couple of weeks ago that my Mum wasn't doing an Alter this year. I said to her as if she

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The day after Max busted his humerus bone. He had to go to the toilet to do a poo. He hadn't done one for days, all the painkillers and medication he was on really clogged him up. We were waiting for the nurse to bring a bedpan, because getting up from the toilet was really difficult for him. The problem was he couldn't wait. The only choice was for him to go to the toilet. He had a toilet raiser

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It's dark. I am feeling lost. I am feeling lonely. Tired. He died, 10 months ago. I am still here. I need to find my way. Some direction. I will be back. Soon. So "they" say.

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So it has taken almost 10 months to keep writing Max's final days. I am getting there. Eventually. It is something I really need to do. I thought my memories of these days were fading, but they haven't. They are still there clear as yesterday and the tears to go with them. His Last Days- Friday 7th May 2010 His Last Days- Saturday 8th May 2010 His Last Days - Sunday 9th May 2010 More of my

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Whilst we were away, we met lots of people. We met Thais, Australians, Russians, Germans, Americans, English, Italians, Danes we met lots. Boo was the attraction, everyone had to stop and have a chat to him and in return he would give a cheeky smile or wave. It gave me the opportunity to have some adult conversation and exchange travel tips and experiences. When we chatted to the other tourists

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Today I went to visit Max. There was a new plaque placed beside him. It was a male, he was 87. Then I looked at another beside that one. It was female 83, I continued to look around and all of the plaques were of elderly, they had had long lives. Max was so freakin' young. Why didn't he get to live till he was in his 80's ? So we could have lived together, laughed together, cryed together, loved

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Before I left for the trip I made sure to pack some photos of Max from the trip we had there together. I wanted him to be with us too. The whole time I thought I would do something special with them and perhaps leave his photos on our favourite beach or something I hadn't decided but in the end I bought his photos back with us, we completed the journey together. I did however purchase a tile that

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We arrived at the hotel safely. I must say they don't really drive that fast which I was glad about but I still didn't feel comfortable about not having Boo in a carseat. Boo had fallen asleep in my arms. We checked into the hotel, I pulled out the essentials from our suitcase and we both crashed. There was a cot in the room which I had requested. But it wasn't safe it had locks and hinges like

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I have so much to say I am going to write this in parts. We were to leave for our trip on the Monday, the Saturday afternoon before, Boo went and stayed with my sister for a few hours so I could pack and get a few things organised for our trip. When she bought him home she commented that he had really bad reflux. I thought it was due to having weened him off his reflux meds over the last week.

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Did you miss me? Here are some pics of our holiday. It was great, it was not as scary traveling with an 18 month old on my own as I thought. It was challenging, yes but it all worked out in the end. It was not a relaxing holiday that is for sure but it was fun and we had lots of adventures and experiences. I will write a real post once I am not so out of whack and caught up on everything.

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The day of our wedding anniversary was a really difficult day to get through. Every little thing reminded me of Max. I still have his bundle of clothes I have kept sitting on a chair in my bedroom. I need to store them away. On the pile of clothes is one of Max's caps. He loved wearing caps. I look at the cap and shake my head. I still can't believe he is no longer here. I could hear him asking "

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I married my best friend. We always dreamed of growing old together. The universe decided that our dream wasn't to be. I miss him so much. I feel lonely every single day. Even when I have my Boo and family and friends. I am still lonely. There is something missing. My Max. He is missing. My evenings are still the hardest. It's quiet. It's still. No one to talk to. No one to laugh with. No one to

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It's a week before we leave for Thailand, I am excited and nervous at the same time. I am forever thinking about the plane trip and what I need to do and not do. I read a good tip this morning and that is never to let your toddler put their feet on the floor when flying because all they will want to do is run around. Although Boo isn't walking, YES you heard right, he is 17 months and NOT walking

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The ten bags of clothing sat on my dinning room floor for a couple of days. I was constantly walking past them there was no escaping them. I had this thought to go through them all again just in case I was getting rid of anything I shouldn't. But I didn't. Then came Monday, I loaded up the car, just as well I have a sportswagon, filled the boot and the back seat beside Boo and we drove to our

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I have been having lots of travel dreams, I don't remember them when I wake but I do know that some have been good and some have been frustrating. Which covers what our trip would be like, I imagine. Thank you all for your tips on traveling with a toddler. They have been very, very helpful. There are some things I have been struggling with like Thailand having no regulations at all in regards to

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Whilst lying in bed this morning giving Boo some morning cuddles I decided today was the day. Today I did something I have been putting off for quite some time. 8 and half months in fact. I went through all of Max's clothes and put them in bags to give to charity. I knew it would be tough and it was. Really tough. I first started going through my clothes, just so I could get momentum.  Boo had

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Last year about this time, Max really wanted to go on a holiday. He wanted to go back to Phuket, Thailand. We had been before and we both loved it. It was the best holiday we have ever had together. As soon as he mentioned it I started looking into it. I wanted all of his wishes to come true. I found a great holiday package, did some research on traveling with a 1year old. My sister and brother

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So I am in BigW just browsing, Boo is in a good mood and not whinging he hates any kind of department store, so I feel like I have all the time in the world. I don't really have anything to buy, except for some toddler Sunscreen but I am taking the opportunity to have a look at things I don't usually get a chance too. Seeing if there are any bargain sales I might find. Every now and then singing

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Is there anybody out there? Just wondering where all my blog friends have gone ? I'm feeling a bit lonely here, I need you guys. I love your support and words of wisdom. I love you all. Please don't leave me now, I still have so much to say. ***************************************** ETA- Thank you to all that have come out and said hi. I knew you were somewhere. I hope you keep popping in

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Busy, busy. Boo keeps me soooo busy. I do love it, I love doing things with him. He is my little Buddy. I love that he has become a little sponge and every day he shows me something knew he does. I love it when he has full conversations in baby lingo he sounds so darn cute.  He moves his little head like he is having a full on conversation, he is too funny. I must record it before he out grows

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I have heaps to say but I am so tired at the moment and can't seem to gather my thoughts. I have a cough that has been lingering and the humidity in Sydney is just exhausting. I feel like we live in the tropics. So for now I will leave you with some photos to enjoy. Boo with my nieces Bunny. Boo having fun in the backyard. Boo playing with the sprinkler. Boo playing in the fountains

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This day marked 8 months since Max passed away. 8 months without him in my life. 8 months without my best friend. Without him waking by my side. Without him telling me he loves me. Without him watching his amazing son grow and hitting his milestones. Without feeling his touch. Without him to do the laundry for. Without him to cook for. Without him to cook for me. Without him to make love to.

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Ok so I called the counselor first thing this morning to find out what the call was all about. She was sending out reminders for embryo storage and my name popped up so she thought she would give me a call to see how things were going. She knew Max was unwell. So I filled her in. That was very kind of her. I could have just been another name on her data system. I have one frozen embryo left. I

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Today I got a call from the IVF counsellor at my clinic. I missed the call, she left a message to call back and I did but she had gone for the day. Now I am busting to know what she wants to tell me. She looks after the donor side of the clinic. All these thoughts are going through my head. Does Boo's donor want to know about him. Does his donor want to meet. Do parents of any donor siblings want

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We are just back from a week away on a beach holiday with my sister and her family. Boo had a ball, he loved the beach more and more every day. He became so confident with the waves, he built sandcastles with my niece and her boyfriend and surfed the waves with my nephew and I. We did lots of discovering in rock pools too which he loved. He splashed around in a lake whilst the others were fishing

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The day before Christmas Boo and I went to visit Max, I cut an Agapantha from the garden to take to him. When I got there, there was a bunch of plastic Holly and a bunch of  plastic Lavender flowers. My sister said she was going to visit so I figured it was from her. Boo and I gave him a kiss, sat and had a chat for a while and wished him a Merry Christmas. When I saw my Sister on Christmas day

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Well I am glad that 2010 has ended but some how I don't think 2011 is going to be any better. My Mum has been fighting her cancer for way too long, she is deteriorating now, although you could never tell her that, not that she doesn't know but she would never admit it. She is still making Christmas sweets for all her family although she pays for it for days later. She is being just as amazing as

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I love taking Boo on adventures and he loves it too. He is so curious, so to open his world to wonderful things just makes him so happy and I love watching him discovering. These photos were taken yesterday at Sydney Olympic Park, I was there a few weeks ago to see U2. What a difference it was without the thousands of fans around. It's only 5 mins from house I really should make more use of it.

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Boo got spoiled rotten by family and friends for Christmas. He played, he laughed, he slept, he ate, he swam, he sang Christmas songs he had a great day. I was doing really well yesterday. Until it was time to sit down for lunch and everyone started popping their bon bons. I turned to my brother-in-law who was sitting beside me and we popped one. Everyone was laughing and enjoying their moment

Veehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01869194928164916281noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2310916819541274807.post-16813456816890424182010-12-22T21:06:00.000+11:002010-12-22T21:06:58.197+11:00

We are loving Summer!

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The festive season is upon us, the more time I spend with family and friends the more I am missing Max, wishing he was with me celebrating and sharing the moments. I am forever grateful that I have my Boo, he is the light of my life. He is cheeky and smart and happy and exhausting, I love him so much. I am going to make it through this Christmas for him, and the next Christmas and the one after

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Well still no wrapping done and only about a quarter of my Christmas cards written. Boo is cutting an eye tooth and a molar at the same time so he has been quite unsettled. He keeps waking during the night which is a drag. He falls asleep quickly enough but I don't. So I have been having naps during the day when he has a sleep which leaves me with no time to do the things I need to do. Boo hasn't

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Thank you everyone for your votes and your input. I really couldn't decide so going purely by your votes Two Weeks just scrapes in over Mr Sparkles. This week has been so hectic, lots happening and lots to do. I have lots to say and no time to say it. Many of things I need to do whilst Boo is having his naps which doesn't really give me much time. Wrapping presents with a toddler is really not

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Ok so I want to submit a post for Mels Creme de la Creme but I can't decide which post. So I need your help to decide please. I must say it has been really difficult reading back to some of these posts. I have spent a good part of the morning crying. Here are the ones I am thinking about posting. Thank you and Goodbye. Two Weeks Mr Sparkles and the Love Notes The Big Plastic Bag So which one do

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I have been reading a lot about loss and grief in the blogosphere lately. Which I am sorry for. When I read these bloggers words I usually nod whilst reading and think to myself that is exactly how I feel. I am finding it frustrating because I have all these feeling, these emotions, yet I can't write them down. And I read others words and it's like they have written it down for me. I don't know

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My Mum made it to her Birthday lunch, she wasn't feeling the best but because my Mum is such a trooper she put on her happy face and managed to enjoy her day with her family. There was some of us missing but they all made sure to catch up with her later. I didn't think I would get into the Christmas spirit this year without Max. Max was never really keen on the lead up to Christmas. He enjoyed

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My Mum is ok, very breathless but ok. She didn't end up having the stent inserted, the specialist gave her a good flush out and decided the stent could wait and he will reassess in 3 months time. Which is good news, hopefully her recovery will be faster too and will be up to getting out for he Birthday lunch. ************************************************ I just realised I have posted twice in

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Here it is! Boos helmet. He hates it!  He tries to pull it off which puts it into the incorrect position so I keep having to reposition it. I have to wean him onto it in the first couple of weeks, this morning he only kept it on for 10 mins then had a complete whinge fest. I will eventually have to get him to have a day sleep with it on, then try and get him to wear it between 18 and 23 hours a

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